i'm a bum

yes

so i'm pretty proud of myself

this all started because i want to try saint germain lipstick from mac, but i don't want to waste money on ANOTHER lipstick even though i love lipsticks. I was a little annoyed that mac changed their back to mac policy to having to have the pans in the pots to be able to b2m, and then i discovered a way i can cheat the system but then i remembered that i tossed out all my empty pots after finding out that u had to have the pans in them. i was also annoyed when i found out that you could b2m the mac wipe pouches,  I THREW THEM ALL AWAY! so anyway! i was looking around to see how many things i had that i could bring back, came to 5 (2 foundation bottles, brush cleanser bottle, an eyeshadow container, and my lash container) i needed just ONE more, and at the same time i saw that i was running real low on a couple of my lipsticks, so i thought to "depot" them. yeah... ideas u come up with when ur desperate. so i thought of depotting them into pill boxes, and i found some REALLY REALLY cute ones from target! i was expecting to buy one of those plain clear ones, but these ones are really cute! and it was only 2.99. i can't find a pic of it, but there was another one there that i thought was really cute and i liked the fact that it was detachable so you can take whatever lip colors you want with you 

but its 9.99 so yeah... lol but i think i will get it eventually if i have a whole bunch of lipsticks that are running low. 

so i did this video, after mel (melformakeup) said that i should do a video on it on twitter. so here it is! i'm really proud of myself! lol

birthday dress

yeah so my birthday isn't until the end of may, may 25th to be exact. but i'm already thinking of what i want to do and wear and whatever. plus it's the big 2 1 so i'm excited and i want to have lots of fun.

this is the dress that i want

with blank ankle booties perhaps?? for a more edgier look.

and if my hair actually grows longer, wavy curls.

if my hair isn't longer by then... extensions lol 

Hair Growth Extravaganza!

Lately, this short hair deal is making me miss my long hair even more and more and now that my hair is highlighted, clip ins aren't going to work anymore...

So starting today/tonight, I am starting my hair growth extravaganza / experience / experiment!

What will this entail you might ask?

EVERYTHING!

every little method that I can think of and heard of, and i mean everything, from hair products to diet.

Now, every good scientist knows that a good experiment consists of only one independent variable so that you can pinpoint what is actually working. BUT I'm so desperate and impatient, I'm going to throw in everything at once! and just hope that my hair grows. The time frame of this extravaganza will be from now until my birthday weekend which is memorial day weekend. I wanna see how long I can get it before the festivities. 

So here is all that's included in my little experiment:

1. PRENATAL VITAMINS. Vitamins... good for your body, good for hair growth?! why pre-natal? well have you noticed that when you're pregnant your hair grows at like 50 feet an hour?

Also, prenatal vitamins help with nail growth, I don't really need help with nail growth but just saying...

2.   Vitamin E! Vitamin E is known for helping with hair loss. Generally vitamin E helps with blood circulation, blood circulation in the scalp area = stimulation = GROWTH! which brings me to #3.

3. I'm going to massage my scalp at least 5 minutes a day. Again, because massaging the scalp helps stimulate blood flow in the scalp!

4. EXERCISE, another way to help the blood flow through out the whole body. Also exercise makes you healthier in general, and if you're healthy, all parts of your hair will be healthy INCLUDING your hair, which makes growth a lot faster. right? 

THEN, at the same time I can lose the weight I need to take off.

5. Eat healthy.

I already mentioned vitamin E, but other vitamins that are correlated with hair growth are vitamin B and C. So, I'm going to try to develop some sort of meal plan that incorporates eggs, fish, turkey, milk, leafy vegetables, and citrusy fruits.

6. Okay, this is really sad because I love pop, but I am going to need to cut down on the caffeine and carbonated drinks, because it weakens the body therefore my hair isn't going to grow SUPER FAST

7. CALM DOWN. I get easily stressed, and I'm probably stressed out about something like 20 hours of the day, all thanks to annoying parents and other things... So i'm going to have to find a way to relax myself, get away from irritating ppl, and actually get some rest! that part is my fault, i need to stop procrastinating so much so that i'm able to get my work done EARLY so i'm not up at 4 in the morning when i need to go to school at 6am.

8. Protect my hair from heat. Since I don't style my hair anymore because I don't like to wear my short hair down anymore, I don't need to worry about cutting back on blow drying, straighteners and curling irons. But I do need to cut back on taking HOT showers. 

9. and number 9, i know this is going to sound stupid but even though i have a feeling that these "super grow" hair products don't work, i'm gonna use it anyway. I think psychologically, I'm gonna think my hair is going to grow faster just because (when actually the hair is probably going to grow faster because of the vitamins =P) but whatever. For some reason we already have those products in the house, so its not like i'll be wasting money going out and buying it so why not...

so yeah that's it! sounds more like a healthy lifestyle change which is all good. You're hair can't grow at its maximum potential if your body is unhealthy and dying lol so it makes sense. I can get longer hair while losing weight and getting more fit.

WISH ME LUCK

I'll take pictures of my ugly hair maybe every 2 weeks? definitely not everyday! or even every week! can't see the difference then... or maybe i should measure my hair with a ruler... lol NO that's too much. but yeah, lets see how it goes... its midnight right now so i'll have to start the exercising tomorrow morning. 

Haul

I've seriously ALMOST lost ALL interest in making videos

maybe its the sickness talking, and yes, i am still sick, it has officially been a week of coughs, headaches, having a runny, snotty nose where one side gets plugged up when you go to sleep, so you turn onto your other side, and then the other side of your nose gets plugged up. yes, tons of fun. but yeah, i don't have the time or motivation to do videos but i will eventually do another video. but by the time i do another video it'd be way too late to do this haul so i will just blog about it. 

so the day i was supposed to buy a couple dresses but didn't, i went to the mall of america. I went to the mac store, even though i said that i wasn't going to give them my business anymore because of sucky workers, but i decided to go there instead of nordstroms for my mac products because i needed another eyeshadow palette and i wanted my eyeshadow in refill pan form. this time i didn't have a negative experience and the mua that helped me was very very nice. 

so i got:

butternutty shadestick

love rock blush from the grand duos collection

an empty 15 shadow palette &

brule in pan form.

my thoughts on sugar sweet and grand duos?

i love the shade sticks!! i like the packaging, how the outside is all color instead of the regular shadesticks where only the tip is a different color. i like the consistency and the colors are really gorgeous, i might go back for the lemon one. 

i like the look of the lipglosses but not a fan of sheer lipglosses so pass on that...

eyeshadows... nice colors but i can do with out them

and the mineralized skin finishes, i can with out those too even though they looked really really pretty!

grand duos

they were pretty nice, and really pigmented. but i thought that it might be a little too shimmery for me so i just got love rock

also, before the day of shopping at MOA, i went to the cco. A little disappointed that there was nothing there this time. Last time they had a whole bunch of products that i've been wanting,  but this time, all those stuff that i wanted were all gone such as angel lipstick, pink swoon blush and sweet sienna pigment. nothing really caught my eye there, so i just got ensign lipglass, bobbi brown eyemakeup remover, and signed and sealed eyeshadow.

i will have pictures up later.

and that is pretty much it ladies. nothing too exciting

TAG! What I'm Using...

Woo hoo! my first blog tag, and i wouldn't want to be first tagged by any other person but one of my favorite youtube girls kelsey of kelzcastv. one of the sweetest girl's i've met on youtube so far.
So she tagged me for this tag and i think what you're basically supposed to do is list the things your using now for the different categories. so heerree we gooooo:


HAIR:
-- Garnier Fructise (however you spell it) Shampoo---the color shield one, and the conditioner in srengthen and lengthen?
--Treseme Hair Spray
--As you can see, I don't style my hair anymore since I hacked it all off lol

FACE: (okay i don't know if it was broken up into subgroups because i'm only referring to kel's and this is the way she did hers so i'll keep it like that)

- Cleanser: Neutrogena Advanced what ever the heck its called.

- Moisturizer: I don't use moisturizer because my face is already oily and greasy that when i use ANY moisturizer i break out.

- Exfoliator: St. Ives Apricot Scrub Blemish & Blackhead Control

- Makeup Removers: Bobbi Brown Eye Makeup Remover, Equate Eye Makeup Remover, and Mac Wipes.

- Acne Med: The night cream that comes with the neutrogena advanced kit, or tea tree oil, or my ly-na pearl cream.

- Toner: don't use toner

Everday Makeup:

Foundation: mac studio fix fluid in nc40 now, sometimes mixed with revlon colorstay foundation combination/oily skin formular in golden beige (to tone down the yellowness in the studio fix)

Primer: Rimmel Fix & Perfect

Powder: MAC MSF Natural in Medium Dark and my solar riche bronzer

Blush: for my everyday face I tend to gravitate towareds melba, tippy, springsheen, and feeling.

Brow: twofaced brow set

Mascara: Maybelline Colossal Volume Mascara

Liner: Prestige Liquid Liner (Black) & urban decay 24/7 glide on pencil (i think that's what its called) in zero... which is the black one.

Lips: myth with whatever gloss i grab to put on top of it, or creme d'nude (occasionally with whatever gloss on top of that as well) or one of those 2 mentioned up there with cherish.

also for my eyeshadows that i wear on MOST days. it would be satin taupe and all that glitters

and i think that is pretty much it. so i'll be tagging these wonderful ladies:

stephbusta
mynameisroth
sweet lisi

okay! ttyl

my shopping list & youtube rambling

so i have alot of birthdays and events to go to this month, next one up is a dinner at chino latinos for a good friends birthday so im getting this dress (pictured below) paired with my lace juicy couture leggings, my black ankle boots, and my leather bomber

as for my hair... me no know... maybe a beret? or maybe that's a little too much? eh whatever.

next event, a little shin dig at a fancy shmancy lounge at the top of the foshay tower, if you don't live in MN the foshay is a building in downtown minneapolis. a swanky place. its a formal so im thinking i wanna wear this?

lol probably with my ankle boots again because i look them so much and it gives the dresses an edge because i hate looking all prim and proper when i'm a loud and larry person.

next up, another birthday party, and this girl always does it big. its my friend's big 2 1 and she rented out a club and invited well over 1500 people. her theme is some sort of futuristic, spacey theme. now for this... i have NO IDEA WHAT TO WEAR. okay when i think of the theme, im thinking funky looks, metallics and neons... hmmm... 

i might have to update later on that one lol

also while shopping, i MIGHT pick up a thing or 2 at sephora or mac. if i'm good, i may not.

i'm really eyeing the shadesticks that came out with the sugar sweet collection. i love their new packaging how the whole outside is colorful rather than plain black. i love my nyx jumbo e/s pencils but one advantage that mac has over nyx is that you twist up the product. i lost my giant sharpener! so i keep on trying to make the best of the nyx pencil by gently using making sure i don't gauge my eyes out with the wooden edge, just until i either get my lazy/cheap ass to go buy a new one or find my old one. i'm also eyeing e/s brule, contrast, and black tied. colors i don't really NEED because i have dupes of, but want after seeing videos on the tube.

as for sephora, i am eyeing the dior forever foundation even though its 40 frickin 5 dollars (45 lol). but what got me sold on it was the fact that its less transferable, meaning you get less of the foundation on your face that gets on your clothes and other people's clothes and what not.



now i love my mac studio fix fluid, but that stuff gets EVERYWHERE!! and its embarrassing when you go out in either natural light or bright fluorescent lights and everyone sees foundation all over your neckline and sleeves (from when i fall asleep in class and have my head on my arm). it makes it look like you're a makeup junkie that doesn't know what she's doing and just cakes on makeup everywhere. even with a setting powder or fix+, that stuff still gets everywhere. now i also have revlon colorstay foundation, that stuff is much better when it comes to transferability, but the color is too pink for my skin tone. 

so yeah! i would love to try the dior foundation, and i'm also eyeing the makeup forever hd powder...

 
see what the hype is about and if your skin really does look flawless with it. i'm also eyeing a shu uemura lash curler. sad to say because all these years i kept saying to myself i don't need to spend alot of money on a lash curler because its just a lash curler and i can make do with these cheap ones that pinch the hell out of your lids. As time goes by, there are little things that are convincing me to get this creme d'la creme of lash curlers. not just the lack of pain of the pinching, but also the fact that it can reach the inner lashes better, and pros are saying that an eyelash curler isn't one of those beauty products you should settle for the cheap ones for unlike products such as i don't know fake lashes? nail polishes? also i'm wearing my falsies less because lately my natural lashes have been looking longer, so i want a really good curl. yeah!!

and i think that's pretty much it... I HOPE. As i'm looking at my makeup collection, i've come to realize that i really really don't NEED anymore, and lately i haven't had the desire to splurge a mass amount of money in one day just on makeup. it felt good at first, but now it doesn't even feel that great anymore because now i get the guilty feeling even before the cashier scans the first product. maybe it's a good thing i'm feeling this way? i'm being somewhat more responsible with my spending, especially during this time right now where people getting our laid off left and right, no ones hiring, prices on random things are skyrocketing...

so i guess it's a good thing that i'm not wanting to haul hundreds of dollars of cosmetics in one day, but i'm also falling out of youtube, and watching other people's haul videos and collection videos as well... idk? i'm slowly losing interest even though makeup is my favorite hobby. i just don't care for youtube anymore, and i've gotten really lazy to get to requests and when i actually have the free time, i get SICK! like right now! i don't care for other people's hauls because i think its boring now (i think my own hauls and vids are quite boretastic). sounds depressing but i think a part of it is also that i don't really feel like i'm contributing much to the youtube makeup community. what you see in my vids, are looks that plenty of other people have done as well, it's the truth. and along with more subscribers as time goes by, you get more haters. I haven't gotten too many just yet, but it's not an aspect of youtube that i'm looking forward to dealing with. Already, when i get notified that i have a new comment, instead of being excited for it, i kinda have this dreaded feeling like "great... what did someone say this time". Definitely not a feeling you should be getting when u get comments lol. 

I started doing these videos out of boredom, and even though I still get bored now, i just don't have the time and energy to scavenge around my collection, try to create a look (that's already done before), record and deal with technical difficulties of my macbook, EDIT and boy does that take forever, and upload... it was fun before but now it just feels like a job especially when it comes to nagging requesters. i think i'd rather leave it the pros such as enkore, xsparkage, petrilude, fafinettex3, rissrose2, and itsjudytime, just to mention a FEW. i might close my account, i might not? i might just leave the videos up and put up a couple more vids before i go m.i.a. -- in case i decide that i'm bored again and want to come back, like during the summer time so i'm not abandoning my wonderful subscribers completely. and i do love them sooo much. just a bunch of the sweetest, kindest people that i've ever met! weird to have met them on youtube lol

but yeah... i think i should probably end this blog here because its uber long, and i know you guys aren't gonna read the whole thing lol. if you did, wow... ur a really patient person haha

so til next time! 

xoxo

UPDATE:

so im back home from the mall and i ended up not getting anything that i NEED, like those dresses because they didn't have the floral one at the store, and as for the purple one... they had one and it was ripped up and a small, i need a medium.

what i did end up getting are the things i said that i didn't need. things from mac... i'm an idiot. but haul video up later. maybe tonight, maybe tomorrow? or whenever i feel like it lol